monday - 10/7/06

God works in such amazing ways that its strange.

Less than 24 hours ago, I had all I ever wanted. Yes, He answered my prayers. But in less than 12 hours later, He took it all away.

I felt so incredibly ridiculed. I had to do what is the most difficult for me. I didnt have the choice.

I dont know whether to thank God or to hate Him.

The 9th of July. My best and worst day. I felt so incredibly lousy yesterday night and today.

Why did He have to do this. He took away almost everything that spurred me on. Is He breaking me, or is He protecting me...